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General details

  • Vada

  • N.E. Arkansas

  • Vada

  • The Learning Place

  • English

In short

  • My name is Vada.  I am 33 years old.  I am a walking contradiction of a person.  I am simple, yet, I am very complicated, for I am not your average person.

    My boyfriend and my children are my life.  My boyfriend is my best friend and confidante.  He supports me in my best and even in my worst.  I would be lost without him.  I have endured several abusive and destructive relationships in the past, and my boyfriend Steve is the fist one to treat me like an equal counterpart in a relationship.  With him, he is the fist man not to abuse me in any way and has become the healthiest relationship I have ever been in.  He has shown me what love really is.  He is my rock and my sanity when the rest of the world tries to bring me down and destroy me..

    Hmmm, where do I go from here?...  A little about my background:  At the age of seven, though not formally diagnosed at that time, I began the long journey of PTSD after witnessing the death of my father.  The second traumatic life event that also triggers my PTSD symptoms happened in 1999 when I was raped.

    I am also bipolar with manic depression.  I also have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), which can be a very intense disorder and cause a vast array of symptoms and reactions.  I also have anxiety disorder in which I have sever panic attacks.  These attacks can feel very disabling when they happen, and I feel very helpless until the moment passes, which usually requires an anxiety pill to alleviate the panic sensation.  I also have insomnia and intense nightmares.  I can function on little sleep.  Add adult ADHD to this list, and my mind is constantly on its own wavelength.  One bonus to these mental health diagnoses is that my creativity level is very high, and my mind has no limits it seems.

    That is just the mental health side of my daily life.  I have what is called "true vertigo", and my doctor cannot figure out why this happens.  Consequently now due to consistent falling, I have 6 herniated disc between my neck and back, and these discs press against the nerves in my spine.  This can cause intense pain, muscle spasms, and can limit my mobility at worst times. 

    With all this being said, my mind is a bit twisted, and I don't put any boundaries on my creativity.  I am very well educated on all my health issues.  I would like to be an informative voice to those who would like to know/learn more about any of it.  Furthermore, my personal background does filter into my characters' stories.  They are so vivid to me, they carry an extremely personal part of me as they begin to exist in written life.  They are a personal extension of me and my creativity.

    profile update: 1/4/14

My Favorites: Reading and Writing

  • Fiction: Crime, General, Historical Fiction, Horror, Humor/Satire, Literary, Military/Espionage, Mystery, Sci Fi/Fantasy, Short Story, Teen, Thriller/Suspense, Women's Fiction, Young Adult/Juvenile

    Non-Fiction: Biography, Body, Mind & Spirit, History, Humor, Memoir/Narrative Non-fiction, Music, Outdoors & Nature, Parenting & Family, Pets, Psychology, Reference, True Crime, Women's Studies

    Screenplay: General

    Poetry: General

  • Anything Patterson or Koontz.  I have become a big fan of Holly Black as well.  :)
  • "Black Heart" by Holly Black
  • Anywhere that I can concentrate on my reading which isn't hard because I could tune out a hurricane.
  • I do best with poetry it seems.
  • Fiction: Literary, Short Story

    Non-Fiction: Memoir/Narrative Non-fiction

    Poetry: General

  • Curious George
  • Patterson, Koontz, Margolin, Poe, Holly Black