Being alive and awake ,Dreaming with my eyes open,never taking anything for granted. Honestly fame is not my game
I'm a kid at heart, I love to color, jump in puddles, and make snow angels. If I'm chipping off my nail polish that means I'm nervous/bored.... it's almost always chipped off.I actually can't stand the smell of nail polish remover.I painted them yesterday(a pretty blue color and two nails still have it on there. I am an animal lover and can't stand to see anything die,hense the day we were heading to work and someone ran over bambi..we turned around got the gun and put her out of pain..Boy did I have a hissy,I really don't eat allot of red meat  but I am not a vegetarian, just a hypocrite. I wear my heart on my sleeve, always have and always will.I trust everyone until they give me a reason not to. If I don't like you, you will know, I'll be nice and polite, but trust me you will know. I have the best friend in the entire world, he's grounded me and kept me sane and safe for the past 7 months. He is also someone I see my future with.I am so lucky to have not let him get away.I'm growing up and learning how to handle things, but I will always be my silly self. I sing in the car and really don't care if I sound good or if people hear me.I'm learning how to drive stick shift,I stalled on a hill, couldn't find 5th gear and had a hysterical crying laughing hissy fit,I was so embarrassed . Hopefully I redeemed myself a little when I drove part way to Kansas last week.I just got on my own, divorced  and am completely terrified of screwing up.I have a 5 year old son  . I am a complete insomniac at least 5 months out of the year, the rest of the time I sleep like a baby. I'm probably the most complex person you will ever meet, I know a lot of people say that but seriously ask people who know me, I'm pretty complex. When I love it is with every inch of my body and soul. I'm a complete Daddy's girl .So much that I was supposed to be a boy and Tommy is the nickname I got stuck with.I am a big sister, oldest of4 I spent most of my time helping out.I love my brothers who are now bigger than me.My beautiful sister whos growing up so fast.My mom is (well I love her) thats enough on that topic. I like being taken care of. But I rarely feel self worth if I don't constantly try to help and take care of everything else. I don't listen to authority and if someone aside from my parents or my best friend tells me what to do I 10 to 1 odds will not listen just on principle.Last I checked I was a Democrat..my guy seems to think otherwise. After allot of soul searching I agree with him. I'm a republi When I'm home alone I dance around and sing at the top of my lungs. I'm a cuddler.  I have a collection of comics. On of my favorite possessions is my Grandmas necklace and my pictures. I love all music especially  heavy metal. . I like hot chocolate especially if it has the little marshmallows in it I also think im addicted to coffee,two cream four splenda usually. I love snow/hate the cold. I like to ice skate even though I'm awful, I have never tried skiing.(yet) I hate my hair and how long it is but don't have the heart to cut it. Last summer I shaved it completely bald (GI Jane) honestly though ..my grandma died of cancer..I did it for her.I'm a mountain girl at heart, part of me will always be on Hoppy Toad Rd.No matter how much city life I've seen. I love food. I love cooking it more.Ask my friends Chuck and Carrie..one night after my separation..and one to many beers..I seriously cried until they let me make them spaghetti!I'm a complete tom boy who loves to climb trees. I like taking things apart...seldom do I actually manage to reassemble. All the jobs I have loved the most...weren't your typical girlie girl jobs. Yeah I worked in a steel factory,yeah I was a mechanics apprentice,yeah I was your print press operator and worked rebuilding and operating laser printers. I can't stand guys who have no mechanical or musical inclination..those are my passions.I also can't stand guys who like thosethings more than me..so I found what Im looking for (finally).I am a little geeky. If you don't know the abbreviation LOTR goodbye! If you can't stand SCI-FI C-YA. Growing up in Johnstown Pa..raised in frederick MD I think I thought I was some sort of rebel I rocked a leather jacket.sold cigarettes,smoked stuff,drank and fought allot.and was for lack of a better word a trouble maker in high school and I'm damn proud of it. I'm a HUGE procrastinator! I love to write, and use Myspace for the beauty of the Blog. Its so much easier than having like 5 journals at a time. I would like to think Im pretty good at it, I find inspiration in all things. Once every 3 months I decide to rearrange the entire house,I am known for a little OCD..then I can't find shit..opps here comes the ADD.. I get angry, cry, throw things, and lose control, and then I'm fine. I never once bought the teeshirt that said Im normal.im about the farthest thing away from that,I have been told I'm a happy drunk. I don't drink around my son at all though.I just think Its gay as hell when he ask me for a drink and I have to say nope its an adult drink..so I don't even have the slightest drop of beer when hes around.I hate most girls, but have a few  that I adore. I'm complete addicted to Starbucks, Cafe Verona Grande or Venti Skinny Latte ..Hold on know I need to have some BRB..I'd get an IV if I could.But this will have to do People think I'm prissy,or snobby when they first meet me, I'm not. I love to laugh until I cry. I love old rock and roll songs and will sing along to them at the top of my lungs. I'm pretty damn awesome.

I'm26!!!! Holy crap almost 30..Hopefully one day I will be kicking in fitness competitions, I  just got a degree for fitness and nutrition.I would like to own my own gym (any investors?)
I've been told I'm feisty, bubbly, self destructive, entertaining, loving, accident prone, cute, obnoxious. The accident prone part is very very true!I also have to touch everything in every store....so this is a  bad bad  thing! I have so much energy that it's contagious! I try and bring fun to everyone around me, but it can get me in trouble at times. I'm full of spirit but I'm a little touchy, and won't back down from anyone. Good thing those assault charges got dropped..sorry :( Im better know I swear ) Having a kid fixes that ...they mimic every thing and I want him to handle his own ...but only honorably..

I watch Dr. Who occasionally speak with a British accent "Ello is there anyone Lurking About?