I love this its very good I honestly have gone through this and I can connect with you in this poem very outstanding...

*Live To Love And Learn*

BUILD IT UP, STAND IT STRONG, MAKE UR RIGHTS WHERE THERE ARE WRONGS, FUSS N FIGHT, BUT LET IT GO, DON'T LET UR EMOTIONS RUN OFF N NEVER LET THEM SHOW. IN MY LIFE I'VE LIVED AND GROWN, TO COME TO A POINT TO MOVE SWIFT BUT MOVE ON. DON'T STAND IN ONE SPOT FOR LONGER THAN U HAVE TO, DON'T LET NOTHING STOP U FROM DOIN WHAT U HAVE TO DO. ALWAYS REMAIN POSITIVE N DON'T ACKNOWLEDGE OR DWELL ON THE NEGATIVE, ALWAYS KEEP YOUR GAME FACE ON BECAUSE THE WORLD IS SO COMPETITIVE. KNOW YOUR WEAK SPOTS N KNOW WHERE YOUR STRENGTHS ARE BECAUSE ANYBODY WILL TRY TO LUCKILY WIN THEIR WAY TO UR HEART. *KEEP UR FRIENDS CLOSE BUT UR ENEMIES EVEN CLOSER*, ALWAYS KEEP UR COMMUNICATION LINES OPEN UNTIL ITS TIME FOR CLOSURE. KNO WHAT IT MEANS TO LIVE BY THAT N KNO WHEN TO TRUST UR FACTS, BECASE UR SUPPOSED TO ONLY TRUST SOME OF WHAT U HEAR, N ONLY HALF OF WHAT U SEE, BECAUSE UR MIND CAN PLAY TRICKS ON U N MAKE U BELIEVE THAT WHAT APPEARS TO BE REAL CAN REALLY BE FAKE. DON'T FALL FOR THE OKEY DOKE N DON'T TAKE THE BAIT, KEEP STRIVING, KEEP LIVING, GO WHERE U WANT TO GO WHETHER IT BE NEAR OR FAR, BE WHO U R...UR OWN PERSON, STAND UP FOR WHAT U BELIEVE IN, N STAND ON IT BEING FIRM...LIVE UR LIFE TO LOVE N LEARN

*In Search Of Yesterday...*

The thoughts in my head circle around a million times a day
The only thing about it is that each thought is re-thought in its own specific way
The death of a dear co-worker, not only just that but also a true friend
In a short time he made a huge impact in my life, but his life was abruptly brought to an end
Dealing with the situation has been a job all in itself
But I’m the strong one, the rock, and the backbone, so who do I go to for help
The pain in my heart is what’s so hard to overcome
But you have to understand that it’s overwhelming knowing that he served only 18 years of his life and now he’s gone.
One minute I’m smiling because I know his legacy lives on forever
But the next minute I cry because the understanding of life is a never-ending endeavor
So as I sit and dwell on the pain, the hurt, and all the negative things
The good thing that comes of this is that he finally got his wings
So when I’m thinking of Shawn and how he’s no longer on this earth
I remember his smile, his charisma, and perseverance for all that its worth
I only wish that I could have talked to him just one more time
But the fact of the matter is, God removed him from this world because he reached his prime
I have gained insight, intellect, wisdom and knowledge
Life lessons from life events that you cannot learn in college
That no matter your accomplishments, who you are, your gender, your age, or what you do
Life is not guaranteed and certainly not promised to you
You can be here right now, at this time of today
But the very next moment you can be in search of yesterday...

*Quiet As A Mouse*

So once u step away from things you begin to see a true reality

and then u'll find out real feelings and exploit just the halves of me

the full me cannot be seen because i'm not loud enough to be heard

and you, you don't understand so go back and re-read my words

i'm not ur perfect or average girl and I damn sure don't try to be

I'm not a hot commodity like trina, hell I'm still figuring out Dominique

so before you judge me upon the actions of my heart

re-route ur prejudges and figure out where did they start

I no longer wish to live in these four walls...upon the burning of my house

but who in the hell am I talking to...whispering, no one is there so I stay quiet as a mouse

but it is only just a whisper, so there is no one there to hear just that

plus its not worth finding a whisper....thats like darkness and the color of black

The things I say don't matter because they never did before

So forget it, i'm done, its ova...I can't take this anymore

This doesn't have to make any sense to you but its philosophy to my ears

Which is the complicated in a simple way, that was learned over the years

Remember my voice from last week, the day before, or yesterday

Because the sound of the tone in my voice, no longer matters today

I am only one body representing one of a nation

Preparing myself for advancement, teaching change, and adaptation

I want to be one of the greats, the ones we're always learning of

Who talked about war, peace, death, life, and unity all in love

Don't worry about what I say because it no longer matters

The journey is like the path of the unwinding pattern

Its neverending with no destination like the explanation of life

Its guaranteed like belief in a marriage now, of the man and wife

But don't rely on the old sayings or the commitment to the spouse

Because nothing loud is ever noticed anymore....so I'm quiet as a mouse.