I was not ready to face this, but they say it comes overnight. It really did.
I was lying on my bed, covering myself with a thin blanket to protect myself from the freezing weather. Each part of my body was struggling to get inside that short blanket, but only some could manage. Most of the time, my legs remained outside that shivered my whole body. But within a few minutes, i grew immune to the cold, in other words, surrendered to it.
I had to cover my head completely, for my mother warned me to protect my head from cold, else i will be sick.
Thoughts arrive quickly in a situation like that. When you have nothing to do, you think of past, try to build future. You create mini stories, when they get boring, you switch on to another., You remember past moments, mostly the embarrassing moments, you think of how you could have averted that, think why couldn't you avert that, and then you cry for you think you are stupid, and then you stop crying for you accept yourself as what you are, stupid.
But after a little time, everything began to bore me. I could not sleep due to the chill. Last winter I used to talk to her, I could do that even now, but that appears to be much more boring than this. Its hard to believe how one summer can change one's life. It was the summer when i fall in love with her, it was the next summer when she no longer bothered me.